so we've come full circle, I'm out of btc...again. i totally deserved it but that doesn't mean i like it. Hell i might as well just not have a life any more, btc was my everything. now it's all gone, the friends, the family, everything. i continually fuck up for no apparent reason. just as my life is going smooth and shit i go and fuck up. well I'm pretty sure that I'll NEVER be allowed back in btc, so yea. might as well give up on that. that should be easy for me, cause i give up on everything. i never follow through, never finish anything i start, so why not give up on btc? hell it's not like i have a choice anymore, it's been made for me. damn it!!!! now all i can do is let the boredom set in...and trust me it has.
So yea, I'm not leaving you with any story of inspiration or shit like that. This post was strictly me venting, needing to get the thoughts out of my head so i could move on. oh yea no update on how "God" has been affecting my life either cause to be quite frank i could care less about that. don't like it, then go on, blog about it! >.<
